basic crapola:name: zacarya stoley {that's actually my middle name...}
age: 17, 18 soon, but oh so very infantile on the inside.
loc: fla
place of birth: manchester, eng
accent?: not much, but it comes out when i'm irate.
status: single but not really interested in anyone.
sëxual preference: i'm leaning towards the male side of the population... don't hold it against me.
yea so... my name is zacarya, a deformed version of "zachariah" or something like that but its enunciated the same way... yes, my parents were wasteoids at the time of my birth...
so i indeed do live in florida, or at least thats where i think i am.
i'm not much of an updater, my children, so you're lucky if i add an entry more than once every two weeks... i've just got way too many chaotic things in my life to worry about my online journal.
the only reason i've created this is so that i dont have to hand write everything in the composition book i've been writing in lately. my hands get a lot of cramps, and my knuckles lock...
yes, i write that much. but here i dont think you'll get a lot from me.
i'm a big fan of music, you name a band i like and i'll talk with you for hours. if we have the same choice in music and love the same bands, chances are i'll end up humping your leg. hey... at least i'll be wearing trousers :|
Better than watching bellerr bending silver spoons
Better than witnessing newborn nebulas in bloom
She who see's from up high smiles and surely sings
Prospective pries your once weighty eyes and it gives you wings
I haven’t felt the way, I feel today
In so long it’s hard for me to specify
I’m beginning to notice
How much this feels like a waking limb
Pins and needles, nice to know you
Good-bye, Nice to Know You
Deeper than the deepest Coustou would ever go
And higher than the heights of what we often think we know
Blessed she who clearly sees the wood of the trees
To obtain a birds eye is to turn a blizzard to a breeze
I haven’t felt the way, I feel today
In so long it’s hard for me to specify
I’m beginning to notice
How much this feels like a waking limb
Pins and needles, nice to know you
Good-bye, Nice to Know You
To know..You
Jason and I slept together for the first time. He rented a hotel two towns over... and you all know the rest. I wasn't his first. He is about 2 years older than me... and he's only been with one other guy. I can respect that.
After the deed itself, we just cuddled... then we got hot again... and started back up. HeeHee.
It didn't hurt as much as I thought it would. I enjoyed it, actually.
I'm sorry... getting to informative for all of you. My apologies.
it has been a while since my last post. sorry about that, but i don't think that many people read this journal to care.
not much has happened. jason's sister is visiting in from jersey. she's quite a hip young thing. she's 22, and parties every night like it's her last. we went out two nights ago. jason wasn't allowed. it was just me and her. it was good.
i got a new job. i'm a secretary for a private law firm in town. the pay is pretty good. my boss is a wench though. i can deal.
>>hearing<< play that funky music white boy by the average white band
jason came over yesterday to give me back my glasses. then we just cuddled in my bed. i love him so much... i cant wait til our anniversary. it'll be our 1 year anniversary next month. the 7th...that's in 7 days...i cant wait. i've planned a special date...teehee... oh got to go cut the lawn. au revoir...
>>hearing<< something that crowsvein recommended....alkaline trio?
>>drinking<< poland springs
>>eating<< a nectarine
>>wearing<< a smile
well hello thar, havent updated in quite a while, not much has happened. i havent been able to see jason all that much. but i got to see him last night. we went to the beach. it was beautiful. he played me something on his guitar. the first song he ever learned on it. he looked so compassionate. so i kissed him.
i was a little cold, it was breezy, so he gave me his fleece jacket. it smelled just like him.
before we walked back to his car, he pulled me in and whispered in my ear...
"I love you."
i told him i loved him too...and we got in the car {i left my glasses in his car, that is why the font is so large.} he dropped me off at vinia's. her parents were home and wanted me to paint their bathroom for them {for 120$ shiiit yes baby}. only because i've browsed those designer painting magazines at the home depot check out lanes. i've gathered up a few skills. theres with one trick with a squeeji...
oh any ways, i'm going to go to sleep. stayed up all night last night spackling the damn walls and then painted them. the first coat of soft blue vinia's dad didnt like, so i covered it with a darker shade of blue. jackass shouldnt care what the walls look like in the room where he relieves him self so often. like he ever lifts his face out of his plâyboy magazines. "i only read them for the articles." ballsy.
well, the babysitting went okay. flew by quickly actually. we played hide and seek, tag, mother may i, and some other cool games. taught them all how to play , and chess. joey's got a good face heh.
dont feel like editing much today, very wiped out.
heres a survey.
[Name]: zacarya
[middle name]: stoley, no not the drink.
[last name]: not going to tell you.
[gendah!]: male
[date]: i think todays the 20th of july
[time]: 12.16
[DOB]: january 23rd
[time born]: 3.46 am
[location of birth]: manchester, eng
[current place of residence]: florida
[mothers name]: isabelle
[fathers name]: erick
[if any, steps' names]: none
[siblings?]: liam, my older brother
[pets?]: boston terrier pup named gracelyn
[what color is your bedroom?]: the walls are white, but i paint on them
[your bathroom?]: pink
[anything on your walls?]: the stuff i paint on them, and some posters
[what kind of clothes do you wear?]: ones that fit?
[carpet color?]: no carpet, wood floor
[bedroom theme, if any]: mixed.
[how much action have you gotten in your room?]: not an extreme amount. second base i guess.
[how many stains are on your sheets?]: drool stains, gracelyns drools and pee stains, no stains of what you're referring to.
[do you wash your linens?]: yes, often
[how many articles of clothing are in your laundry basket?]: just emptied it in the laundry room this morning
[are you the one doing your laundry, or is your mother?]: i do mine.
[how many cds do you have?]: a lot. over 200.
[single or taken?]: taken
[first boyfriend/grlfriends name?]: back when i thought i was straight, i dated a grl named gwen. she was horrible.
[what is your uality?|bi, , straight|]: i'm a flamer.
[do you support marriages?]: yes.
[are you democrate or republican?]: i dont care. politics sicken me.
[are you even interested in politics?]: not at all. Describe your favorite
[food]: italian, specifically shrimp and lobster alfredo
[hand]: hm?
[physcial feature]: i have a thing with shoulders. eyes too.
[animal]: my boston terrier
[pair of jeans]: my dark blue acid wash w/ whiskers
[overall artical of clothing]: i dont care. my worn out vintage tees i guess.
[band]: incubus, the vines
[genre of music]: rock, alternative rock, the semi-amplified rock (ex: the hives, the vines, white stripes)
[friend]: i dont have a favorite friend
[boyfriend/grlfriend]: jason at the moment
[finger]: "do you bite your thumb at me sir?"
[toe]: whichever one that doesnt get stubbed.
[arm]: my left?
[side of your face]: i dont care. not a fan of my face.
[hair]: i love jason's hair :D
[shape |square, cirlcle..|]: square.
[journal site]: blogdrive, maybe xanga or caleida
[writing style]: normal?
[book]: whichever one i feel like reading at the moment
[webpage]: zenhex.com, quizilla.com
[pizza]: pineapple and ham
[thing to do]: read, listen to music, walk around the town
[place to go]: the library, the mall, cd stores
[country]: australia can be a country
[school subject]: math and art and english
[school utencil]: notebook
[school lunch item]: spork and jello pudding
[number]: not sure.
[locker number]: not sure.
[teacher]: mr harise is cool.
[person]: dont have one.
[singer]: craig nicholls from the vines
[actor]: i dont have one.
[actress]: i like michelle rodriguez.
[movie]: identity, say anything, the matrix, swat, the faculty
[magazine]: whatever i feel like
[color]: burnt orange, navy blue, dark green
[sport]: lacrosse is cool, field , ice , sn0wboarding.
[drink]: cherry coke
[allcoholic beverage]: not a fan of that stuff yet
[resteraunt]: spelt it wrong, sweetness. i liked cocoa's when it was in biz.
[car]: '67 Pontiac Firebird
[state]: california and florida
[town/city]: dont have one
[type of cloud]: whichever one brings heavy rain
[weather condition]: rain, breeze, cloudiness VS
[AFI vs NOFX]: afi
[Otep vs Opeth]: otep
[Metallica vs Slayer]: what the hell kind of comparison is that? metallica
[poetry vs prose]: both
[english vs math]: math
[science vs history]: history
[art vs band/music]: cant choose.
[band vs colorguard/flag team]: band
[tired vs awake]: awake
[school vs work]: school
[arm vs leg]: leg
[square vs triangle]: square
[yellow vs green]: green
[beans vs eggs]: eggs
[amanda vs elyse]: elyse
[mtv vs vh1]: vh1
[nick vs disney]: nick
[disney world vs orlando studios]: orlando studios
[chicago vs mulin rouge]: chicago, nicole kidman makes me queezy
[indiana jones vs pirates of the carribean]: good question. thats not worth the pain, indiana jones is nothing like P of the C.
[lindsey vs lindsay]: lindsay
[country vs pop]: uh...pop
[rap vs rock]: rock
[metal vs punk]: both
[hospital food vs lunch room food]: lunch room food
[overly soft mattress vs wicked hard mattress]: wicked hard mattress
[butts vs bûbies]: i dont like either
[belly buttons vs s]: belly buttons
[fingers vs toes]: fingers
[smile vs eyes]: eyes
[ears vs nose]: ears
[chalk vs markers]: is it dry-erase?
[pencil vs pen]: pen
[white vs black]: to what reference? Current
[clothes]: worn out brown power rangers t shirt, beige dickie shorts, beach sandals
[make up]: not wearing any
[feeling]: tired and alone
[hair condition]: super.
[weather outside]: nice. could use a surf.
[time of day]: almost 1 pm
[annoyance]: older brother fixing his car in the driveway
[worry]: that i wont get my last paycheck in the mail
[fear]: theres a funky noise coming from the bathroom. evil ass-dwelling aliens!
[phobia]: same thing
[book]: right now i've got stephen king "dreamcatcher" on my desk
[crush]: jason
[love]: jason
[obsession]: television
[reason to f*ck it all]: why bitch about our health? stuff your face, we're all going to die sooner or later, why not make it sooner?
[plans for tomorrow]: babysitting the penuela's twins.
[thing looking forward to]: local band performance tomorrow night
[longing]: a chocolate bar
[screen name]: not going to say.
[e-mail]: dont ever use it.
[husband/wife]: dont have one.
[favorite sibling/fam. member]: aunt cassandra, she kicks ass.
[favorite memory]: when i pushed liam into the lake last summer
[feeling]: tired and alone
[want]: to see jason, or just take a nap last
[movie seen]: Not Another Teen Movie
[book read]: dreamcatcher
[person you saw]: liam
[person you hugged]: jason
[kissed]: jason
[made out with]: jason
[hung out with]: vinia and ian
[car you were in]: liam's '70 stang
[boyfriend/grlfriends name]: the one before jason? his name was kevin.
[cd listened to]: the hives, vini vidi vicious
[song heard]: dashboard confessional "vindicated"
[song played on the radio]: "enter sandman" metallica
[word written on a paper]: "ink"
[word spoken]: "sorry"
[visit to the park]: last night
[time you looked at the stars]: last night
[watched the sun rise]: never have. i prefer sun set.
[time you thought]: i think all the time. its a curse.
[time you were truely happy]: last night
[time you slept outside]: last thursday
[curse words uttered]: uber-wh0re
[thing you touched]: the computer mouse, and keyboard?
[time you yelled]: this morning.
[store you went to]: old navy
[thing bought]: sandals
[panties worn]: panties? lol
[clothes worn]: i wore a dark blue polo shirt, beige dickie pants, and sandals last night
[time you took a shower]: this morning
[thing you drank]: orange juice
[thing you ate]: a nectarine
[time you cried]: last week
[smiled]: this morning
[laughed]: last night
[lied]: couple hours ago
[said good-bye]: last night
[person you talked to online]: vinia
[on the phone]: jesse
[in person]: jason
[person you had over your house]: jason
[voice you woke up to]: liam bitching at me
[time saying 'i love you']: last night
['i haate you']: i dont use that phrase.
['whatev']: whatev? that's idiotic. Have You Evaaaaaa
[liked eggs?]: sure.
[ate packets of ketchup like rob roy?]: yes.
[been to a theater?]: yes.
[drank allcohol?]: tasted it.
[eaten a strawberry?]: yes.
[had homemade pancakes?]: all the time.
[played ?]: not often.
[duck-duck-goose?]: love that game.
[stolen anything?]: yes.
[taken money?]: sure.
[used ?]: nope.
[drank heavily?]: nope.
[smoked?]: yes.
[had a bonfire?]: lol yea
[roasted marshmallows?]: of course
[made a s'more?]: no, is that bad?
[eaten a pint of ice cream yourself?]: often
[loved?]: yes.
[Killed?]: a bug maybe.
[sinned?]: sure, everyone does.
[used someone?]: as a human shield, lol
[been used?]: countless amount of times
[repeatidly?]: ^
[gotten kicked out of a store/resteraunt?]: yes lol last few
[do you know PANSKUN?!?]: no...
[do you like eggs?]: sure...
[spell out your name and add 'beans' to it]: zacarya beans. [fanks]
hmm...well...i was fired from my job two days ago. i asked don for what reason... and all he said was that i get too aggressive with his son [kevin]. and that if i cant get along with my future employer than i shouldnt be working there at all.
wtf? i only get too aggressive with that little weasel because he is a complete assbag. hes got no soul, i tell you. he's mean to the kids, he pushes them around... he's like a sodding playground bully, but with a blue collar and dickies.
he doesnt enjoy working with the children as much as i do, and his job, his placement in the effed up caste system of Kiddie Kare... requires him to be nice with the children. to be buddy-buddy with the children...
but nooo...having a heart is just too hard for Mr. "I've Got A Tree Up My AnaI Cavity."
i'm now thinking about being a baby sitter. my goal is to become a well known baby sitter in this town... and i just hope that one day i get to babysit kevins brothers and sisters... that would be a great opportunity for me to turn them against him. muahahaa...haa...ha.
anyways, i've got a job tonight down at the marsten's place down the road. its a frickin castle, going to lose those kids. i'm supposed to be watching 4 children. a 10 yr old, an 8 year old, a 12 year old, and a tiny toddler of 1 year and a half. i'm actually looking forward to it. i know these kids, they're well behaved.
Joey is the 12 year old, he volunteers at the library with me and Yolanda, i hope he'll help me out with the youngins.
i met the toddler before, she's absolutely adorable. cheeks as if they were replaced with 2 plums.
but before i get to go supervise the Fab Four, i have to jump in the shower and drop by vinia's. she stole my sodding incubus cd, and my vines cd... chances are that they are now broken in half hanging on her wall, reflective-side out.
vin's a very unique person. she designed her room all by herself. her walls are painted all different colors. one is soft orange, one is soft yellow, one is pale green, and the other is pastel pink....
basically, she snaps blank cds in half and super glues them to her walls. very creative, she's got one side completely covered, and it looks like a derrange mirror. its beautiful actually.
i hope i find my cds in one piece. that would be spiffy.
well, i'm a newbie. not much to talk about really. yesterday i had a little quarrel with my boss's son, who is currently training to be my boss.
i work at pre-school/day care center. its more of a day care center. its called "kiddie kare," a family business.
i love working with the children and all, my whole job is setting up the activities and carrying them out with the kids, i like it more than i can express. children are the greatest things in the world.
and i just watched League Of Extra Ordinary Gentlemen for the first time this morning. a little belated, yes, but i didnt like it. on the cover of The Picture of Dorian Gray, they show what he is assumed to look like. that character in the movie did not look anything like him. come to think of it, many people have different versions of what he is presumed to look like. all wrong. all wrong. who is right?
and i didnt like the special fx with hyde and jeckyl. looked much too fake. i could do better. but i dont plan on it.
the vampyr lady was cool, some areas i didnt find intrigueing, but what can we do?
now... the scene where shane west is surrounded by fire? a homôsêxual pyromaniac's dream.
i must say that i slightly attracted to shane west, he was absolutely adorable in Whatever It Takes. not one of the best movies of its time, but... he was cute with his accordian, boxers, and cowboy hat.
basic crapola:
name: zacarya stoley {that's actually my middle name...}
age: 17, 18 soon, but oh so very infantile on the inside.
loc: fla
place of birth: manchester, eng
accent?: not much, but it comes out when i'm irate.
status: single but not really interested in anyone.
sëxual preference: i'm leaning towards the male side of the population... don't hold it against me.
yea so... my name is zacarya, a deformed version of "zachariah" or something like that but its enunciated the same way... yes, my parents were wasteoids at the time of my birth...
so i indeed do live in florida, or at least thats where i think i am.
i'm not much of an updater, my children, so you're lucky if i add an entry more than once every two weeks... i've just got way too many chaotic things in my life to worry about my online journal.
the only reason i've created this is so that i dont have to hand write everything in the composition book i've been writing in lately. my hands get a lot of cramps, and my knuckles lock...
yes, i write that much. but here i dont think you'll get a lot from me.
i'm a big fan of music, you name a band i like and i'll talk with you for hours. if we have the same choice in music and love the same bands, chances are i'll end up humping your leg. hey... at least i'll be wearing trousers :|
